Lent

This year for Lent I am going to go to weekly Mass, and biweekly confession. I am going to at a minimum one item from my task list every night, and potentially get up half hour earlier in the morning to do one more. The task items will be from my to-do project list as well as regular chores around the house.

Fortitude

Today's homily I found very apt to how I was feeling. This morning as I was on my way to work I kept on thinking how I felt my hold on life was hanging by a fraying thread, one where I can easily see myself slipping into the darkness of despair. But the priest's homily hit home, he said "in moments where we want to give up, and think we can't hold on any longer, to pray for fortitude to hang onto the line, and just not let go, God will carry you when you feel that you alone can't make it."

Grace to Bear our Crosses

At times I get depressed and anxious thinking about our current situation, being in a home that we feel we have outgrown, but are not able to sell due to the mortgage now being upside down due to the housing market crash. Mentally and emotionally I start to close down, losing myself to despair. When I feel all hope is lost, God sometimes sends me gentle hand to lift my soul back up. Today, was one of those days, I kept on feeling myself falling into a dark pit of despair, then I heard a podcast of a homily by Fr. Augustine Tran in which this struck me to the core, and let me feel God's subtle guidance to lead me out of my dark moment when Fr. Tran reminded us to ""pray for the grace to bear our crosses patiently, for the grace to accept His mercy in all its forms with love and repentance, that we may be united with our Lord and Savior forever."


Tran, Augustine. "Disordered Pleasure Enslaves Us to Sin." Catholic Homily. 10 Apr. 2011. <http://catholichomily.org/media/4-10-11DisorderedPleasureEnslavesUsToSinFrTran.mp3 >